Follow On

I have been thinking of all that God has brought us through. So many wonderful wonderful happy times - but also there are many dark trials that God has walked beside me through. Oh how wonderful to KNOW that I can follow Him anywhere - through anything - and trust - because He cares for me . He knows what is best for me!

It is at times of deepest trial - that I "learn of Him". I look back at times when my heart was ready to break - the path before me seemed uncrossable - or times when I was so tired I just wanted to quit - and then He came and ministered to me in a way that no one else was could.

How safe - in His bosom to rest in His care. How comforting to know He cares for me. When I look back - I see the trials He has brought me through. I can remember the day our daughter died - getting the news that they had done everything that they could - but that she did not make it - I remember collapsing the the floor - unable in my own strength to physically stand because of the pain in my heart. Yet, at that very moment when my strength failed - when I was at my weakest - His strength was there - waiting for me - holding me - uplifting me. I knew He was there. Overwhelmingly, I felt His comfort and strength flood my heart - and I went on. Not in my own power - for there was none left - but only because of His. I think of the many times in ministry when the task before me seemed too hard - too great - impassable. I remember the times when God seemed far away - when prayer seemed useless - yet, God was there. My faith - tested - my beliefs becoming more cemented. As I walked through the trials it was God who brought me through them. He did not make them easier - but added grace to my load. Now, I look back and see how He worked and what I learned during those times and I see the trials differently - they have become a blessing - - for through them - I came to know Him - so much more.

I look at life currently and I wish I could see the future. There are days that seem unbearable - there are times I am so uncertain which way to turn. Am I making the right decisions? So many times with our little Zak I wonder what I am to do - then I look back and see - God has his little life in the palm of His hand. He placed him here - because it was good for me -- it was good for him. I do not need to know all the answers. I do not need to know what his little future will hold. Sometimes I wonder what will become of him. Will he ever live independent of us - will he always need care? Some days these thoughts can seem overwhelming. Then I realize - my life is not my own - it is Christ's; bought with His precious blood - He knows what is best for me. I look back and see He has always done what is best for me - the future journey will tell the same - He always does what is best.
Surrender is not a one time occurrence - it is daily. I was reminded today - I do not know the future - but I do know the present. The only thing that I can do is be faithful. So today I will choose to obey God - I will choose to show Christ to others. I will choose to look to others needs and not focus upon my own.
Someday my earthly journey will be done. I will follow and meet Christ on Heaven's shore. All the trial and troubles of life will seem but a moment - when I look into His face. What a day that will be!

Down in the valley with my Saviour I would go;

Where the storms are sweeping and the dark waters flow;

With His hand to lead me - I will never, never fear

Danger can not fright me if my Lord is near.

Follow - follow - I would follow Jesus

Anywhere, everywhere - I would follow on.

Follow - follow - I would follow Jesus

Anywhere He leads me I would follow on.

Thanks for stopping by. Hope you are having a great week!

~Jane