Happy Anniversary, Rob - I love you.
As you can see by the frequency of my posts - life here has been busy. All good - but very busy.
We have been actively pursuing living accommodations in our new city. It has been tiring, exciting, discouraging - and all of those things in the same afternoon! Changes always bring along uncertainties - and new opportunities for us to trust God and His leading in our lives. Seems prayer makes these times so much easier. I am finding I can leave my concerns with God and He brings peace and shows the way. So, I continue to learn more and more how to trust a God who loves me and cares for me.
This weekend has been busy for the new pastor and his wife that are moving here. They have been down in the area trying to secure housing here too. We were thrilled to find out that they were able to find a home to live in and things are falling into place with their move here. We are now down to just a few weeks before they will be arriving here at Calvary.
The kids all finished school last week. We buckled down and got the school year done a little bit before we had planned. It felt nice to get that last day done and the books put away for the last time this year. We all were very happy to be officially in 'Summer break'. (Which will also be moving break and ministry change break.)
Our new little one is doing great. We have successfully got her onto a schedule. She has adjusted really really well.. She is most definitely a Mommies girl and I am loving it. Seems all the rest of the kids were Daddy's girls or boys - but this one is all mine. She smiles all the time - talks to me all the time and enjoys the company of her new siblings. They all have enjoyed taking her on walks, feeding her and getting her dressed for the day. She is never in need of company!
As much as I love Summer - I am not one fond of having a day that just goes to the wind. I sat down this past week and finally got everyone on a schedule. I love my schedules. I am not a happy person when I do not know what comes next. I find my kids to be quite a challenge when they do not know what comes next too! It felt good to have the days planned out and start implementing the new system of time management for the summer. It also was fun having a whole new section for our little one. It is nice to have the joy of a new added blessing to our home!
Well, I will close. Trust you are staying busy and enjoying the beautiful days of spring. I am hoping to get some laundry hung out tomorrow and get the house ready for Sunday when our realtor is hosting an open house. I am praying for an offer this weekend -- all it takes is one!!
My husband's grandfather fought in World War II. He left World War II alive. He left the war a hero. He left the war altered physically from the wounds suffered in combat. The Battle of the Bulge changed is life forever. For the rest of his life he lived in a wheelchair because of the sacrifice he made for his country. A price he continued to pay for more than forty years after the battle ended.
For over forty years - both of them continued to pay the price - for both of these commitments. His tired body was laid to rest over 10 years ago. The jets flew over the grave site, the flag was folded pristinely before us and handed to his widow, the guns shouted their salute to the fallen soldier who had given all - and we wept. Tears of grief and tears of thanks. Our freedom came at his expense, and so many others, as well.
This memorial day I will remember them - and be inspired to believe in a cause worthy of the ultimate sacrifice.
(In front of somewhere with their finger's in their noses - (Abbey thinks this is embarrassing!)
(By some water - acting like they are fish)
(In front of the local library - saying "shhh" - Zak got a little confused with this one and the nose one - oh well....)
After the pictures were all taken. The gang headed back to the church where they made cookie images of themselves. I thought they looked pretty good - (Dad is the first - the Abbey - then James - Zak opted to make a cookie pizza - although the image seems fitting of our active five year old - almost a perfect match for him!!)
I am so glad that we can have fun as a family. Even if some of us are not there. These are the things of which memories are made. Trust you are enjoying the blessings that God has given you. There here for us just a little while to mold and shape - for His honor.
On the day your were born - I held you in my arms amazed at the beauty God had created through love. Though unspoken, and not consciously thought; a vow so sacred was breathed through every part of my body.
That was many years ago. I have made it through your infant days and colicky nights. I have watched with wonder as your toddling feet maneuvered through uncharted territory as you took your first steps. I made it through the amazement that you were in kindergarten and doing your school work diligently. I have cherished every Mother's Day since you were born; and looked into your dark brown eyes more than once and marveled at the young lady you are becoming.
Through all of these milestones and so many more the sacred vow has continued to beat within my heart. A vow - only a mother can understand. To keep you safe - protected and train you to be ready for a world that at times is much too hard - and full of unguarded places. My responsibility to you is just as sacred now 15 years later as it was the day you were born - perhaps more so.
It is a vow that I honor when we laugh together and have fun enjoying each other's love and friendship. It is a great delight to my soul as I listen to you play the music you have practiced and see the emotion and feeling coming from within you as you play. It is a vow that I do not take lightly when having to make decisions based on your whereabouts. A vow that drives me to ask the hard questions:
It is a vow that is worth the sacrifice of time to assure that you are safe - even if it means having to drive you somewhere myself. For it is a vow made many years ago - that I still hold in high regard.
Sometimes I have to say no to one of your requests; and see the disappointment in your eyes. It makes me sad to know that my decision has caused you disappointment.
Then, when the time has passed - the air has cleared and further explanation is able to be made it is with a mother's heart that I pray you will understand. Yes...
So, I talk. You listen. I explain my commitment to you and you begin to understand - not necessarily the answer; but my heart. As we talk - you begin to see it is not for your displeasure but for your protection. I want what is best for you. Oh, the joy that comes to my heart as I see the eyes of your understanding opened. How confusing and troubling these teen years can be; how much Satan wants to convince your heart that I do not understand!!
I am more willing to loose all the money in the world than to place you in a position of danger and vulnerability. You are more valuable to me than all the money this world could give me.
If someones desire is to bring you harm...
if Satan's attacks are aimed at your very soul...
My child, they will have to come through me first before they get to you because...
I am still among the living here - although quite a bit busier than I am used to. All the added work is such a blessing; for our little one is here - adjusting and bonding to us as a family. There are more snuggle times, more kisses, and a bit more laundry.
I can not tell you how blessed I feel to have our little girl here with us at last. We have to wait for six months for the adoption date to be finalized; but we are settling in to being a family of 7 quite nicely.
I have put our youngest on a schedule and I am finding it to help out a lot! We have time in for each of the older kids to have play time and cuddle time with their new sister. I am still assuming all of the role of feeding and changing - thus helping her with the bonding time with Mommy. Daddy did get in on an early morning feeding time - and Mommy was not in the least disappointed!!
Mother's Day was the happiest I have ever had! It had a bitter sweet note to it though, as a family in our church just said their goodbyes to their daughter two days before the holiday. While my heart was filled with joy and happiness over our newest - their hearts were breaking over their empty arms. It brought back a lot of memories for me of that first Mother's day without our Ally. Life has a way of putting things in perspective for us! Saturday, we will have the memorial service for this little one. My heart goes out to them - for we have been there before and I know the intense pain the death of a child brings.
Well, there is a hungry baby calling for me - I best be getting to her.
Here is what is left on my menu to make tomorrow morning:
What a great God we serve. I stand in awe at His care and love for me.
I went to Goodwill and found these. They have all been washed - ironed and are awaiting her arrival. Not sure which one she should wear for Mother's Day this Sunday. Let me know what you all think.
Pink Flowered Dress: $ 2.99
Pink and Blue One Piece Outfit - $1.99
Eyelet One Piece Outfit with Pink Highlights - $2.99
Baby Blue Checkered Dress with Lace - $2.99
White Patten Leather Shoes - $2.99
I am leaning towards the blue outfit - but still not sure. Perhaps we will have to have one for Sunday School and then one for Worship Service. (Don't tell my husband he would think I have finally flipped here!)