I remember my first mother's day fourteen years ago. I can not even put into words the feelings in my heart that day. I was so happy to finally be a Mother!
I also can not explain the emotion I felt towards my own Mother on that day. Realizing for the first time just how much sacrifice being a Mother required. I saw my Mother different that first Mother's Day. The view of her changed from that of "my Mom" - to more that of a special person having my respect. I suddenly realized that it was possible to hold a tiny little baby in your arms and feel within you more love than you ever had felt before. I understood that first Mother's day the weight of responsibility that came with that title - Mother.
Through the years I have come to understand my Mom more and more. Not by getting to know her more - but by getting to know me. I understand what it is like as a Mom to have dreams and plans for your children. I understand the feeling of responsibility that at times is overwhelming. I understand what it is like to make mistakes and wish you could go back and do a day over; but having to pick up and go on despite the shortcomings. I understand now how much it hurts to say 'no' to your child when you so desperately want to say 'yes'. I understand the fears that come with being a Mom - when you know that soon they will choose their own path - and you hope and pray that it is a path that will not cause heartache or distress. I understand now that being a Mom is one of the hardest jobs of all.
By being a Mom - I understand the sacrifice that has been made for me; and it is with utmost gratitude that I say to my Mom -
"Thank You - for everything. Happy Mother's Day. I love you."